Am I annoying for going on yet another hiatus? Yes, I am. Need to reevaluate the focus of my blogging. I don’t enjoy blogging randomly. I need a niche. Yup okay later people.

Lover, what’s your truth?
What is behind that swaying smile?
Lover, hide me in your shadow
While you go out and play for a while
I’m not to be kept, or
To be kept in the dark
Lover where am I in the picture?
I am no more than a spark.
In desperation I trust,
I trust for I can’t lose, again
Lover am I losing you?
Do you remember my name?
Lover don’t lie, don’t hide it 
Don’t hide me, or from me
Don’t berate me for my doubt
Lover please set me free.

This morning I pondered about why I used to feel unhappy.

I discovered that I am most joyful when I go ahead and do something I want to do, without bothering to stop and ask for approval, or waiting for someone to stop me.

Not impulsive actions, of course. But motions that keep true to your heart.

The world is full of haters, I discovered last night. Okay, I discovered that long ago, but I realised that these haters are unfair and irrational. Put two girls in the room surrounded by people that don’t really like them. But they’d be nicer to one girl, not the other. And the best part is, the latter was less at fault. But no one really cares about that comparison, do they?

It’s totally impossible to stop others from judging you. But it’s also totally impossible for them to stop you from living your life in full swing and happiness.

It’s back to work after my two-day break thanks to gastric flu. Now I wish I could stop myself, and just continue snoozing below the covers.

So it’s been 3 days into the new year and while I am trying to be absolutely optimistic about 2010, the irony is that I’ve had the shittiest first 2 days of the year. Let’s not even go into it.

Anyhoo, I have been wanting to post my resolutions up, but never really got down to finalising them and when I finally did, I left the nice, elaborate list in the office (before the 4 day weekend).

So with some brain-cracking I crafted the list again. Here they are!

New Decade Resolutions: 2010 - 2019 (yep, I figured that a 10-year plan would be better.)

1. BE HAPPY EVERY DAY. It just feels nicer.

2. GET TRIM AND TONED. I smell skinny coming my way this year. Very soon.

3. SAVE MONEY. Lots of it. And get that Hermes bag I saw the other time.

4. BE FASHION-SMART. No, it’s not okay to go out with just anything slapped on.

5. KEEP UP WITH NEWS AND TRENDS. It’s so uncool to be ignorant.

6. BE MORE ORGANISED. At least try to put things back in their original positions.

7. KEEP WRITING. Pursue that career even if it’s the toughest thing in the world.

8. LEARN COOKING. Because it’s fun to be domesticated.

9. BE AWESOME. No one can make you feel inferior without your consent, says Eleanor Roosevelt.

10. CHASE SUCCESS. It’s the only thing in life worth chasing.

11. BE SOCIALLY DESIRABLE. Without trying too hard.